When I started writing my first blog I had no idea what I was doing. I just started writing because I needed to vent. There was no method – there was no point – other than me writing down how I felt. It was therapy and the more I did it – the more I enjoyed it – and the more I started to feel better about who I was.
Writing changed my life. I was in a pretty dark place when I started writing. The more I wrote about the darkness the lighter my world became. The more I let things go, the easier my journey became. My bitching and complaining became embracing and rejoicing.
Then somehow my writing became about how many people were reading and commenting and tweeting and retweeting and liking and sharing. When no one would comment I started to think I wasn’t writing well and wondering what I was doing wrong. I started writing what I thought people would want to hear, and I started questioning my writing ability and wondering how I could change to get more likes, more hits, more followers…
This is so not who I am. So – I’ve decided to go back to the beginning – Back to where it’s just me and my laptop having some therapy time. Back to writing about what matters most to me – back to not concerning myself with the numbers but concerning myself more that the content comes from my heart –
I don’t know if this happens to you; But I most certainly got too wrapped up in getting validation from others that I am indeed good and kind and thoughtful and all those others things that puffed me up!
I’m just going to try and be good and kind and thoughtful every day, and not really worry that others might not know that. I will know that I’ve tried my best and that I don’t need likes, shares, tweets and comments to validate who I am.
Don’t get me wrong – I love when people read and I’ve helped them or they feel better or they see something from a different point of view – I’m just choosing to not let their comments or lack of comments define who I am. I just need to write – that’s all.
So – those of you who are reading this – I thank you – genuinely thank you – for taking the time. I know you have a million other things to do – and I appreciate that you spent just a little time with me.
Remember – you don’t need others to validate who you are – look in the mirror and smile at that face looking back at you. Be kind to yourself and to others.